Im a failure

No food, just lemonade, spices, and a boiled egg everyday for a week.
+ the 100 workout.
100 Jumping Jacks 90 Crunches 80 Squats 70 Leg Lifts 60 Jumping Jacks 50 Crunches 40 Squats 30 Leg Lifts 20 Jumping Jacks 10 Minutes Running.
Ill be posting every 5 seconds losing my sanity but I need to do it because I binged so bad today. I feel like i'm going to throw up.
Also starting up the slim quick pills tomorrow. It's looking like I am gonna need them.


When I hit 150 (by friday) I'm going to dye my hair blonde. It's my reward. When I hit 145, I'm going to stop taking diet pills. When I hit 140 I am going to buy some new clothes YAY. When I hit 135 I'm getting a tattoo. Rose on the front of my shoulder. Don't judge.

Today's fast

DAMN i screwed up.
48 hour fast starting now.

only sugar free carmels and 0 cal sweet tea for 2 days. seriously.

BATHING SUIT BATHING SUIT BATHING SUIT
damn my mother for taking me out to eat then staring me down at the table
AND i think i have food poisoning from it
wthh

The people I look up to

Taylor Jacobson

Audrey Kitching

Mat Devine

April 3, 2011

Fasting 24 hours starting.... NOW
Thinspo:

Food log April 2, 2011

500 Calories:
2 slices of wheat toast
1.5 tbsp of honey
1 boiled egg
A couple sips of sweet coffee

All eaten first thing this morning so I have all day to thoroughly burn it off :)

EDIT
I drank a couple of cups of coffee more, add about 100 cals. I also did a bit of exercise so it should hit at about 500 still.

EDIT 2
DAMMIT I WENT AND ATE
3 ritz crackers
1.5 tbsp spinach dip
1 package (2 servings) ramen
2 strawberry ice (only like 5 cals each)

Collectively today I ate under 900 calories but thats over what I planned x.x.x..x.x.x..x

TOMARROW I am fasting all day no doubt I need to obliterate my appitite

So last night I did a little more research and

decided a 48 hour fast won't be very good for what i want to do. So I decided to go with the ABC diet (ana boot camp). 12 pounds by April 26, 2011 :)

Binge free: 1 day
HW: 185
CW: 159
LW: 149
GW: 145
UGW: 135

Planning a fast

I took a Slimquick Ultra pill yesterday and it wasn't even remotely energizing though it did help a bit with appetite. But even worse than it's lack of help with energy is that about 5 or so hours after taking it I got bad bad     chest pain. I do have panic attacks sometimes but that was completely out of nowhere. I think I'm going to ditch them till my last week before I go out of town (May 1st).

So yesterday I ate:
1 can minestrone soup
2 slices wheat bread
8 saltine crackers
.7 tbsp of peanut butter
1 cup sugar-free jello
1 Naked smoothie
About 610 calories collectively (estimation might be a bit less/more)

Today have eaten:
2 servings Naked smoothie 260 cals
1 slice whole grain toast 70 cals
1.5 tsp honey (not sure how many, maybe 50 or so?)
I might have to go out to eat later, so i'm saving the rest of my calories for that. If we do go out I'll have a small casear salad, not sure about calories on that.

Then Saturday and Sunday I am going to fast with about 30 minutes walking each day to keep my metabolism from destroying itself.

I just want to be pretty enough for someone I think I love.